well its was an ok weekend at best, i had the house to myself for once and i couldnt bare to stay on my own so i invited lex over and she didnt know if she could come over so i went to shell she later rings me but says no reason why , she was gonna come over, so i was crushed that i could spend a civil night in the company of the closest person to me, next day i went out accompanied by simon and fable to mcdonalds for breakfast, after that we waited at the bus stop and paul showed up out the blue! we all returned to my house and fable went back into town and simon went home, me and paul hung out like old times and later returnd into town, we then spent the remainder of the time befor city in the angel and walking around town, we went city just befor 7 and i was clad in my cyber gear, all white no less and ppl were shocked to say the least, in city i danced and headbanged to ever song they had to offer, i saw fable and simon get together, kinda predictable but gd for them, i now reflect on the past few days and see that being single well and truly suks and i will never get over things that have happend, and i try to impress but it comes to no avail. i have a plan to get an industrial metal thing goin with paul so that should be gd, my emotions should fuel my music atleast, but things are fuked up because life is fuked up and i hope that u can see past my false face and show alittle compashion for me in this rough streach of life that lay befor me.